Matthew 19:26: Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
I am pregnant. I am now 9 weeks along. As you can see from the picture above, taken this past week, my baby is continuing to grow next to the placenta. The placenta is the circle and the bean is my baby. For those of you that know me, I am high risk. This is my 5th pregnancy since Blue Rock was born. Blue Rock is a true gift from God as I had no problems with him and only took a prenatal vitamin. Since then I have discovered I have lots of different things going on not in my favor. The only thing in my favor is that I can get pregnant, which being low on progesterone is apparently pretty amazing. Thankfully during pregnancy I can take supplements for that, also meds for the blood clotting disorder I have, and folic acid supplements. The biggest challenge my body faces is that I have a lovely genetic disorder called a Balanced Translocation. Only about 1% of the population have this. My chromosome 6 and 10 are switched. This only causes problems when trying to having a baby. The specialist told me last spring that every pregnancy I have I have a 50/50 chance of having a successful pregnancy. A few weeks ago she said I have less than a 50/50 chance of having a successful pregnancy. But I know with God all things are possible.
I have had 4 sonograms so far. I have gone to the doctor once a week since I was 4 weeks pregnant. It gets tiring. On the positive, the baby is growing and we see this every week. He/she has been measuring a little over a week behind since the beginning, so this isn't new. The positive is that every week he/she is continuing to grow. The concern is that they still have been unable to detect a heartbeat. After my perinatologist appointment two weeks ago, that doctor told me if my Hgc levels were not rising then we should schedule a D&C since there was no heartbeat. Well, guess what Doctor? My Hgc levels are still rising. They rose over 20,000 in those two days and the baby is still growing. When I saw my doctor last week, she said we should talk about my options if there was still no heartbeat. I went to get a sonogram and sadly there still is no heartbeat, however, the baby is still growing. How is this possible? I don't know but I will say, God has a plan. The sonographer told me on Wednesday that this is when she really hates her job. She doesn't have much hope. I'm honestly sometimes struggling with hope. However, the other night when I was getting ready for bed Matthew 19:26 came to mind, "with God all things are possible." We have a lot of people praying for us and I ask for prayers from you too. God can perform a miracle. My baby's heart could be beating right now. The only thing I know is that God is the Master Physician. Please pray that God breathes life into my child. That next week the medical community is amazed. To give hope to others that may be too quick to make a decision to end a pregnancy. This is a great website with lots of wonderful stories about babies born to women who were told that their baby would not make it. http://www.misdiagnosedmiscarriage.com/
Please pray what you feel your heart leads you to pray. My family would love to welcome this baby into our arms next July. I know God can give us this child. I also know God's will is sometimes different than ours. Please pray for this child and peace for my family. I go back to get another sonogram next Thursday. I would LOVE to hear a heartbeat and to see the faces of the sonographer and doctors. I know this is possible. We know the baby is there and is still growing! Not all babies grow by the book. I told the nurse Thursday when she asked me what I wanted to do, I said, "I have a lot of people praying for this baby and I want to have another sonogram next week. How can God work a miracle if I end the opportunity for Him to do so." She said, "that sounds like a good choice. Let's schedule you for another sonogram next week." With God ALL things are possible! Thank you for your prayers.